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I've got morewit;
a better kiss;
a hotter touch;
a better fuck
than any boy you'll ever meet;
sweetie, you had me.
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8 / 26 / 2004]
[ mood | calm ]

Ok... since I'm here

Done nothing... gone to school.. pacesetter practice... and tomorrow's our first game. It won't really matter because our football team sucks anyways. They won their scrimmage... whoo-freaking-doo!!! That doesn't mean that the season is going to go like that.

Blah... i'm planning to change my layout soon.. but I need to figure out what I'm doing and I want to put a different background pic. And I'm probably going to change my font too... ok well.. with that said... I'M GETTING MY CAMERA IN LESS THAN A MONTH.... YES!!!


And for those that hate long entries... I'm not going to do that anymore because i know how much people hate to read what I have to say... especially since it's like 3546435468734867 pages long. So I've saved you the trouble of reading... ha!

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Love burns into my skin... [Sunday
8 / 22 / 2004]
[ mood | crazy ]

Okay so... this weekend was pretty fun. I had lots to do. I finished my english assignment... okay well.. half of it anyways.. and I went to die_die_darling's Peter Piper party!! :D It was cool because we got over 500 tickets I think... if i recall correctly. We got her a blow-up crayon and dig_my_grave got herself a blow up blue guitar!! XD

Saturday I went to dances_x_wolves's house and we were just doing a little study group.. and we watched an episode of sailor moon!! :D But after that I had to go home so... yeah.

Sunday... nothing's happened yet... except that I need to go to a store and try to buy a perfume that I think smells soooo good!! :D

That's about my weekend.... not that interesting but.. eh well.. whatever.

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8 / 20 / 2004]
[ mood | content ]

Find your birthday and then find your tree. This is really cool and
somewhat accurate, also in line with Celtic astrology. Then send it
to all your friends, so they can find out what tree they fell from.

Dec 23 to Jan 01 - Apple Tree
Jan 01 to Jan 11 - Fir Tree
Jan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm Tree
Jan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress Tree
Feb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar Tree
Feb 09 to Feb 18 - Cedar Tree
Feb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine Tree
Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree
Mar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime Tree
Mar 21 (only) -Oak Tree
Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut Tree
Apr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan Tree
Apr 11 to Apr 20 - Maple Tree
Apr 21 to Apr 30 - Walnut Tree
May 01 to May 14 - Poplar Tree
May 15 to May 24 - Chestnut Tree
May 25 to Jun 03 - Ash Tree
Jun 04 to Jun 13 - Hornbeam Tree
Jun 14 to Jun 23 - Fig Tree
Jun 24 (only) - Birch Tree
Jun 25! to Jul 04 - Apple Tree
Jul 05 to Jul 14 - Fir Tree
Jul 15 to Jul 25 -Elm Tree
Jul 26 to Aug 04 - Cypress Tree
Aug 0 5 to Aug 13 - Poplar Tree
Aug 14 to Aug 23 - Cedar Tree
Aug 24 to Sep 02 - Pine Tree
Sep 03 to Sep 12 - Weeping Willow Tree
Sep 13 to Sep 22 - Lime Tree
Sep 23 (only) - Olive Tree
Sep 24 to Oct 03 - Hazelnut Tree
Oct 04 to Oct 13 - Rowan Tree
Oct 14 to Oct 23 - Maple Tree
Oct 24 to Nov 11 - Walnut Tree
Nov 12 to Nov 21 - Chestnut Tree
Nov 22 to Dec 01 - Ash Tree
Dec 02 to Dec 11 - Hornbeam Tree
Dec 12 to Dec 21 - Fig Tree
Dec 22 (only) - Beech Tree

YOUR TREE (in alphabetical order)

Apple Tree (Love) -- quiet and shy at times, lots of charm, appeal, and attraction, pleasant attitude, flirtatious smile, adventurous, sensitive, loyal in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner, very generous, many talents, loves children, needs affectionate partner.

Ash Tree (Ambition) -- extremely attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, Likes to play with fate, can be very egotistic, reliable, restless lover, sometimes money rules over the heart, demands attention, needs love and much emotional support.

Beech Tree (Creative) -- has good taste, concerned about its looks, materialistic, good organization of life and career, economical, good leader, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable, splendid lifetime companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, sports, etc.).

Birch Tree (Inspiration) -- vivacious, attractive, elegant, friendly, unpretentious, modest, does not like anything in excess, abhors the vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not very passionate, full of imagination, little ambition, creates a calm and content atmosphere.

Cedar Tree (Confidence) -- of rare strength, knows how to adapt, likes unexpected presents, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, a great speaker, determined, often impatient, likes to impress others, has many talents, industrious, healthy optimism, waits for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.

Chestnut Tree (Honesty) -- of unusual stature, impressive, well-developed sense of justice, fun to be around, a planner, born diplomat, can be irritated easily, sensitive of others feelings, hard worker, sometimes acts superior, feels not understood at times, fiercely family oriented, very loyal in love.

Cypress Tree (Faithfulness) -- strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed.

Elm Tree (Noble-mindedness) -- pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, modest demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not to obey, honest and faithful partner, likes making decisions for others, noble-minded, generous, good sense of humor, practical.

Fig Tree (Sensibility) -- very strong minded, a bit self-willed, honest, loyal, independent, hates contradiction or arguments, hard worker when wants to be, loves life and friends, enjoys children and animals, few sexual relationships, great sense of humor, has artistic talent and great intelligence.

Fir tree (Mysterious) -- extraordinary taste, handles stress well, loves anything beautiful, stubborn, tends to care for those close to them, hard to trust others, yet a social butterfly, likes idleness and laziness after long demanding hours at work, rather modest, talented, unselfish, many friends, very reliable.

Hazelnut Tree (Extraordinary) -- charming, sense of humor, very demanding but can also be very understanding, knows how to make a lasting impression, active fighter for social causes and politics, popular, quite moody, sexually oriented, honest, a perfectionist, has a precise sense of judgment and expects complete fairness.

Hornbeam Tree (Good Taste) -- of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness, and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.

Lime Tree (Doubt) - intelligent, hard working, accepts what life dishes out, but not before trying to change bad circumstances into good ones, hates fighting and stress, enjoys getaway vacations, may appear tough, but is actually soft and relenting, always willing to make sacrifices for family and friends, has many talents but not always enough time to use them, can become a complainer, great leadership qualities, is jealous at times but extremely loyal.

Maple Tree (Independence of Mind) -- no ordinary person, full of imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud, self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, has many complexities, good memory, learns easily, complicated love life, wants to impress.

Oak Tree (Brave) -- robust nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting, independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the ground, person of action.

Olive Tree (Wisdom) -- loves sun, warmth and kind feelings, reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read and the company of sophisticated people.

Pine Tree (Peacemaker) -- loves agreeable company, craves peace and harmony, loves to help others, active imagination, likes to write poetry, not fashion conscious, great compassion, friendly to all, falls strongly in love but will leave if betrayed or lied to, emotionally soft, low self esteem, needs affection and reassurance.

Poplar Tree (Uncertainty) -- looks very decorative, talented, not very self-confident, extremely courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, great artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.

Rowan Tree (Sensitivity) -- full of charm, cheerful, gifted without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.

Walnut Tree (Passion) -- unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous! and passionate, no compromise.

Weeping Willow (Melancholy) - likes to be stress free, loves family life, full of hopes and dreams, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful, musically inclined, loves to travel to exotic places, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with when pressured, sometimes demanding, good intuition, suffers in love until they find that one loyal, steadfast partner; loves to make others laugh

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8 / 17 / 2004]
[ mood | blank ]

Well... school started yesterday... and right now I'm in second period and it's sooo boring. They can't teach me anything and I can't do what I need to do because they have to get rid of some of the people first. BIG WHOOOP!!! Well... my schedule isn't that difficult... and I have 6th period lunch. :D

I guess that's it for now.... I hope I have MORE excitement today!!!

* Talon *

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WARNING: Long entry ahead!! [Saturday
8 / 14 / 2004]
[ mood | HAPPPYYYY!!! ]

Whoo!! Time for another update. YAY! *does the chicken dance over and over again until almost passes out*


You may think that this is just writing, but it's actually a confession...Collapse )

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8 / 12 / 2004]
[ mood | itchy ]

got more of a tan than I wanted...

i'm tired....

i want to sleep....

people don't understand...

jeska made me a ska cd....

people feel bad....

i don't know what's going on....

i'm out of the loop....

I'm sorry if I couldn't read some of my lj friend's journals and I couldn't comment..... (which all of you are probably not going to read this entry)

I hate the way i look.... (explain later)

I can't stand to see people get hurt.....

I had a crush... and now... I'm hurt again.... I should've guessed this was going to happen... ugh! I don't want to feel this way... I don't want to like ANYBODY!!! I DON'T WANT TO FEEL SAD!!! But I guess I should've asked from the start if he was taken or not... *sighs*

Now i know.. and... this is an ugly feeling... i can't explain it.. but some of you have gone through this.. right? I'm not the only one... no... everyone has gone through this in some time or another..... and... SEX DOESN'T MATTER IF YOU LOVE EACH OTHER!!!! THAT DOESN'T PROVE THAT YOU LOVE EACH OTHER MORE THAN WHAT YOU ALREADY DO!!!

I've been ranting for the past couple of days... I think that I need a break.... why can't I have something interesting happen to me? Why can't I just write something that doesn't involve badmouthing someone? Or why can't I just write something that actually is from my heart?.... I know why.... but.. I won't bother to write it down.. it doesn't matter.

Okay... done saying everything I needed to say... except for one more thing..... EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED!!! DON'T LIE TO ME AND TELL ME THAT IT DIDN'T!!

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8 / 10 / 2004]
[ mood | calmish..... ]


I would post pics but I have to wait till my friend puts her cell phone pics on the computer!! :P


I would like you to forgive me for this.....Collapse )

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Ranting begins...... NOW!!! [Sunday
8 / 8 / 2004]
[ mood | blah ]

Maybe I misunderstood?

And it doesn't matter.... even if I were to stay quiet... I would still make you mad... and don't tell me that I'm lying because you know that I'm not. Everything's so awkward now.. and i don't know why. It shouldn't be like this...we should be able to talk like we always did... but... I guess things change... whatever. I guess it's better you have OTHER people to bring a smile to your have.. since I'm not that person... I was never that person..there's nothing I could do to get a smile on your face... even when I acted like a complete fool... but that's okay... I guess.

(ranting done now)


"hold tight to the emotions
for you never know when you'll actually appreciate them"

Nothing's happened this weekend.. except that I've been bored and I've been pretty hungry. I've written about a page and a half on my story... it's really weird and it isn't going anywhere...

blah! it looks like it's going to rain... or maybe that's just my curtains.. :P... but the point still stands.


Does this entry make sense?



"Stop talking"

I can't........ BAH!
"Come with me to neverland love... where nothing but what you want will happen...."


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8 / 6 / 2004]
[ mood | pessimistic ]

There will come a time when I won't have anything... and that's when it will be the time to cry.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!! Shit happens... it's not my fault...

Everything's different.... it all seems so awkward... are you mad at me?

Did I do something wrong? If so.. then what is it? GAH! And yes... no one is allowed to comment on this entry because I don't want to hear the same fucking answers all over again.

GAH!! I don't understand... what the hell is going on? Do you not want me as a friend anymore? *stupid question*

Blah! I need to think some more... i'm not sure what will be the outcome.. but it sure as hell beats what I'm doing right now.... NOTHING AT FUCKING ALL!!!!!

*puts money in the swear jar*.... yes... those who know what I'm talking about.....

I want to hate you soo bad.... [Friday
8 / 6 / 2004]
[ mood | torn ]

You think that you can bring me down
Well you're fucking retarted then
Because you may cause me to shed some tears for you
But that won't last
I may cry and yell and hate you for the rest of my life
But there's a thing called "revenge" that you don't seem to understand
You may look at me with inferiority
But I look at you with utter disgust
Try and tell me that you don't care
Because I know that you do
You want to hide what is already there
Don't be an asshole and just admit that you are a loser
You will never have the balls to do what you want
Just try and tell me that I'm not good enough
Try and tell me that I'm not worthy
Because the truth is...
You're the one that's not worthy of anyone!!!!

Felt like writing that since I'm the mood and because I can. i'm soo annoyed right now.. it's not funny.. and the thing is that I don't know why. Everything has been bugging me since I got home.. but... eh... I haven't done anything... I just kept inside. Now.. I'm listening to my music and it's starting to come back. I don't know what to do to relax myself...

School will start in about 2 weeks i think. And I hate the fact that this year is going to be killer... and that once again I will not find what I'm looking for. THAT will always be an empty space inside of me until.. well.. until it happens. I know I shouldn't be in a rush but... it's kinda hard not to be.

"I'll wait for you forever
I'll even scream if that's what you want
I may be a fool when it comes to you
But I want to be with you always
And that's all you need to know"

I can't keep myself from typing more.... I want to stop but it seems like something is telling me to keep writing.... but i don't know what to write about now.

My parent's "situation" is getting better... I don't listen to what they argue about so I don't have to have any guilt..... okay... i guess i can stop this blather and I can go to sleep... ciao!


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8 / 5 / 2004]
[ mood | nostalgic ]

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Copy this and find out what color you are!! Just take out the spaces :D


Well... yesterday my friends cut my hair because I was bored and I wanted a change... but now I regret it because it turned out kinda weird. No offense to them... but they think it's cute. I don't... so... I went to get it cut.. AGAIN... but by a proffesional... and now.... it's SUPER short.... i hate it!!! I want my long hair back... and now I don't know how to style my hair because... it's too short for ponytails and it sticks out kinda funny if I just let it go.... blah! STYLING TIPS WANTED!!!

I would a pic... but you'll have to wait.

Anyways... band camp is going okay.. but it takes up a lot of my time.. like i even do anything productive with my time but that's not the point.. it's kinda irritating me that some people learn real slow.. and that makes me get very edgy... so.. eh.

I cried so much today... you have no idea... but it was because of a "situation" with my parents... and then the whole hair cut thing just made me go into shock for a couple of hours. But I'm okay now... the thing with my parents is really bugging me though.. and I don't know what to do... I guess I'll just have to leave them alone... and not get tied up with their problems.

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8 / 2 / 2004]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Couldn't go to sleep...

Fucking tired.....

Band Camp started today......

Going back at 6......

Wanna go to sleep......

Feeling bitchy.....

Some people suck....



Done now!!

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7 / 31 / 2004]
[ mood | bouncy ]

Well.... July 30th.... MY B-DAY!!!!!

Happy B-day xcrossouteyesx

I hope that you have a good time and congrats on passing your test!!!! :D

Well... yesterday was the best!!! Except for the part that I only got 3 hours of sleep. Well... they woke me up early so we could go to Wal-mart... and when we went... they put my digital camera on lay-away.... that how poor I am...

Anyways... well.. afterwards, we went to Melrose because I had wanted to buy a skirt... but I ended up buying a lot of skirts and shirts.... :D... I went clothes crazy!! Well.. I bought some boots 2... but the rest of my clothes are on lay-away.... ;D

Then... I came home... and my mom wanted to dye my hair again.. so.. she dyed it BURGUNDY instead of the dark one... and now.. my hair is RED!!!!! YYYYYYEEEESSSS!!! I would post pics but... I still need to get more pictures on my camera.... lol!

Then... I got ready for PETER PIPER!!! Wow... I must say.. that was fun. fairy_dancer, dances_w_wolves, me, glenda and ashley went.. and it was soo much fun. We pigged out on pizza, chocolate cheesecake, little cinnamon roll things... and ice cream!! Wow... I have never felt so full in my life!!! :D

Me and Dana opened our presents and I couldn't believe what I had gotten... it was the best!! After that we went to play some games. I wasted my tokens on Cruisin World and then.. I didn't have anything left so I just watched my friends play against each other in a game of AIR HOCKEY!!!

After that... we had to go home so Dana gave me a ride home. My mom was so happy for me... she gave me a kiss and a hug... and so did my daddy... I was soo happy because my dad hasn't given me a hug and a kiss in a long time.

I came into my room and saw my sister... she was playing on the computer and she only told me happy birthday.. well.. I thought that was better since none of my other relatives called or anything.. so.. I was happy with that. I don't need my relatives for shit so.. they can go fuck themselves for all I care. The only people I need are my parents and my friends and I'm all set. :D

Well... I think this is a long entry so i should go because I need to figure out what to wear because I'm going to go to die_die_darling 15nera!! :D

What should I wear..... dressy pants or dress?

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7 / 28 / 2004]
[ mood | crazy ]

Post anything that you want, and post it anonymously. Anything. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love, an opinion -- anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice or more if you'd like. Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others whom you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say.

My birthday is coming up... oooohh I'm soo excited. I think that fairy_dancer and me and other people are going to go to Peter Piper and then after that I have no clue what is going on. But... after our birthday... the next day is xcrossouteyesx b-day!!! :D

Everything happens in the month of july!!! LEO'S ROCK!!!!

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7 / 26 / 2004]
[ mood | enthralled ]

I see a green field full of every colored flower in bloom and giving off a sweet intoxicating scent. I run until I feel like my lungs will explode... yet.. I'm compelled to keep running. My legs feel weak and my lungs burn, I collapse on the green grass. I lie there feeling the sun warm my skin, and i open my closed eyes to see someone staring at me through beautiful green eyes. I sit up to see this person better... but.. he moves away.

'Where are you going?' I want to ask.. but I realize I have no voice. Suddenly he moves towards me and grabs my hand and leads me to the middle of a forgotten forest. The green trees full of life, birds are making their nests for their coming young, owls are sleeping until darkness comes and they can roam the sky and find their prey.

'This is so beautiful' I hear myself say out to the open.

'Isn't it?' this person responds.

'You can hear me now?' I ask wondering why I couldn't speak earlier.

'Of course I can hear you... my love' he responds as we stopped and he turned to look at me.

'I'll always be here to catch you when you fall... I will always be here to listen if no one else will. I will always be here to hold you when you're cold.... I will always be here to love you.' he said as he pulled me close and i felt safe in his arms........

 This was one of my dreams that I can't shake off.... and the weird thing is that I don't know anyone with green eyes... hmm... oh well... it has been a while since I last updated.. but.. nothing interesting has happened. I went to the mall yesterday, found lots of stuff that I wanted.. but.. I only took $5. So.. I bought myself a coffee.

Yesterday was Isabelle's birthday.. she's now 16. I caled her to wish her a happy birthday but she wasn't home so I just left her a message. Happy b-lated birthday Isabelle!!!

I was "thinking" yesterday.. and i remembered some things that had happened in the past.. and they got me angry because I couldn't believe the way that i handled them. I can't do anything about that now but.. it just annoys me to think that that's how baby-ish I was. And one 'mistake' stuck out the most... and it had to deal with a boy... that's all I'm going to say about that but... it hurt... it REALLY hurt... i couldn't believe someone could do something like that. And at that point in time I had felt useless and insignificant... I understand that if you like someone that you will do anything to talk to them but... gah! That's enough for today I think.... so... I'll update later.

♣ Talon ♥

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7 / 22 / 2004]
[ mood | hungry ]

People tend to fuck up, we as humans are not perfect.
Some wish to be
Others just except it.

I've learned to except that we're not perfect that one day you will make a mistake... whether it be large or small... you've still made a mistake. Now, it's okay to make a mistake, but you have to try to undo what you have already done, it's not impossible, but it's not completely possible either. You're efforts at trying to change and trying to fix your mistake is what will gain you respect, you understand?

Well, anyways, guess what? Starting today my hair is dark burgandy. I think it looks purple, but that's just me with my simple colors and such. Anyways, I'm about to go to eat at cici's... hopefully, so I guess I'll update later.....

FYI... I'm not going to get rid of livejournal afterall... I'm just not going to update as much anymore, that's why I have my REAL journal here with me.. so that way I can write whatever I want and no one will be able to tell me anything... well... gotta book it!

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Top Commenters [Thursday
7 / 22 / 2004]
[ mood | cold ]

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7 / 21 / 2004]

Hello everyone......

Please... please... PLEASE join my community... I need all the members I can get!!!


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7 / 21 / 2004]
[ mood | entertained ]

LJ friend stats
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LJ friend who likes you the most inshadedvalleys
LJ friend who wants to meet you sixlostdreams
LJ friend who has a crush on you fairy_dancer
LJ friend who looks up to you shortskirtsrock
LJ friend who you should get to know better die_die_darling
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which one of your LJ friends loves you
LJ Username
enough to be friends zane_star
hates you to death xcrossouteyesx
has a crush alwaysgreen17
loves you SO much makeshiftwngsx
dreams of haveing sex with you tortillajoe
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Stolen from someone [Wednesday
7 / 21 / 2004]
[ mood | bored ]

Bold the movies that you have seenCollapse )

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